it's a cold, and it's a broken hallelujah.
that is a terrible, terrible song to lazily rub sleep out of your eyes to.
C Am C Am F G C G....it's just a song, really. it goes on.
and i've grown older, and perhaps i've grown colder. the sun rose on today so very long ago, it almost feels like i've lived a hundred lives in each moment, but it's only afternoon, yet. only afternoon - why did we always have this fascination with the night?
dream is destiny. believe. do you day-dream, anymore?
drift towards the door - unconsciously counting the number of ways you can remove yourself from yourself, and be the person in your dreams, finally. i dream that i can fly. some nights i hover outside your window and watch you sleep.
oh sinner man, where you going to run to?
but i don't day-dream anymore. i forgot how to stare, meaningfully stare into space. i fear that now i merely see.
and anytime tomorrow i will lie and say i'm fine,
i'll say yes when i mean no,
and anytime tomorrow the sun will cease to shine.
there's a cookie for someone who can name that song.
Friday, April 01, 2005
found this while exploring through the older reaches of the hard-drive. can't even remember when i wrote it, really.
when you call the modern philanthropist an idealist who is denying reality, you are, in fact, correct. this is because the reality we live in is a bourgeoise-centric reality, and as such suffering of the many is necessary for the wealth of the few. to be a true philanthropist you must be a revolutionary.
the humanitarian merely wants to 'raise' the prole from his suffering to become a member of the bourgeoise...thus perpetuating the way of things as they stand, merely removing an 'undesireable' component. what (s)he does not realize is that its the existence of that undesireable state that puts him or her in a position to begin to formulate these thoughts of 'saving' the proles.
the circumstances are not the problem, the reality is.
when you call the modern philanthropist an idealist who is denying reality, you are, in fact, correct. this is because the reality we live in is a bourgeoise-centric reality, and as such suffering of the many is necessary for the wealth of the few. to be a true philanthropist you must be a revolutionary.
the humanitarian merely wants to 'raise' the prole from his suffering to become a member of the bourgeoise...thus perpetuating the way of things as they stand, merely removing an 'undesireable' component. what (s)he does not realize is that its the existence of that undesireable state that puts him or her in a position to begin to formulate these thoughts of 'saving' the proles.
the circumstances are not the problem, the reality is.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Unspoken
why don't you love me, she asked.
i do, he said.
no. you don't, she said, simply.
i - maybe i don't. i'm sorry. i can't help it.
don't be sorry. don't patronize me with apologies. some things just are. you don't control them, and neither do i. you said that to me, once, a long time ago.
do you believe that?
i believed in you.
don't say that. why is everything so dramatic?
because real life seldom unfolds according to the script.
they sat there, together, for a long time after. finally, after the sunset, he spoke.
so where do we go now?
i don't know. what do you see in your dreams?
i see the stars.
so do i. must be a different sky.
story of my life. Unspoken.
why don't you love me, she asked.
i do, he said.
no. you don't, she said, simply.
i - maybe i don't. i'm sorry. i can't help it.
don't be sorry. don't patronize me with apologies. some things just are. you don't control them, and neither do i. you said that to me, once, a long time ago.
do you believe that?
i believed in you.
don't say that. why is everything so dramatic?
because real life seldom unfolds according to the script.
they sat there, together, for a long time after. finally, after the sunset, he spoke.
so where do we go now?
i don't know. what do you see in your dreams?
i see the stars.
so do i. must be a different sky.
story of my life. Unspoken.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
suddenly that knife's looking really nice. cosy. 2am, i'm drunk again, heavy on my mind.
its heavy on my mind.
some things, it seems, werent meant to be forgotten. can't seem to let you go, despite the fact that we were never anywhere in the first place. you see that's what gets to me, really -- in the end it just turned out to be figment, but a figment i've found myself bound to for the longest time, in want...need...of something more..concrete?
you'll never hear the stories i have to tell, because we became different people the moment you made your choice and i made mine. we live with the consequences, with each breath.
melodramatic? hardly -- that's life, hon. that's just the way each day passes, and it's more dramatic than anything you'll ever read in one of my stories.
Have a nice day.
its heavy on my mind.
some things, it seems, werent meant to be forgotten. can't seem to let you go, despite the fact that we were never anywhere in the first place. you see that's what gets to me, really -- in the end it just turned out to be figment, but a figment i've found myself bound to for the longest time, in want...need...of something more..concrete?
you'll never hear the stories i have to tell, because we became different people the moment you made your choice and i made mine. we live with the consequences, with each breath.
melodramatic? hardly -- that's life, hon. that's just the way each day passes, and it's more dramatic than anything you'll ever read in one of my stories.
Have a nice day.
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
she grew up in an indiana town
had a good lookin’ momma who never was around
but she grew up tall and she grew up right
with them indiana boys on an indiana night.
well she moved down here at the age of eighteen
she blew the boys away, it was more than they’d seen
i was introduced and we both started groovin’
she said, i dig you baby but i got to keep movin’
...on, keep movin’ on
last dance with mary jane
one more time to kill the pain
i feel summer creepin’ in and i’m
tired of this town again.
well i don’t know but i’ve been told
you never slow down, you never grow old
i’m tired of screwing up, i’m tired of goin’ down
i’m tired of myself, i’m tired of this town.
oh my my, oh hell yes
honey put on that party dress
buy me a drink, sing me a song,
take me as i come ’cause i can’t stay long.
there’s pigeons down in market square
she’s standin’ in her underwear
lookin’ down from a hotel room
nightfall will be comin’ soon.
oh my my, oh hell yes
you’ve got to put on that party dress
it was too cold to cry when i woke up alone
i hit the last number, i walked to the road
last dance with mary jane
one more time to kill the pain
i feel summer creepin’ in and i’m
tired of this town again.
Last Dance with Mary Jane
Tom Petty
(to room cricket with a tennis racquet, to cycling to friends places because its raining (!!) and you've got to get out of the house..., to grey skies, to causing 2pacs fall from grace, to chai, to walking across roads with your eyes closed, to aiming for jordan, to letting it burn.)
had a good lookin’ momma who never was around
but she grew up tall and she grew up right
with them indiana boys on an indiana night.
well she moved down here at the age of eighteen
she blew the boys away, it was more than they’d seen
i was introduced and we both started groovin’
she said, i dig you baby but i got to keep movin’
...on, keep movin’ on
last dance with mary jane
one more time to kill the pain
i feel summer creepin’ in and i’m
tired of this town again.
well i don’t know but i’ve been told
you never slow down, you never grow old
i’m tired of screwing up, i’m tired of goin’ down
i’m tired of myself, i’m tired of this town.
oh my my, oh hell yes
honey put on that party dress
buy me a drink, sing me a song,
take me as i come ’cause i can’t stay long.
there’s pigeons down in market square
she’s standin’ in her underwear
lookin’ down from a hotel room
nightfall will be comin’ soon.
oh my my, oh hell yes
you’ve got to put on that party dress
it was too cold to cry when i woke up alone
i hit the last number, i walked to the road
last dance with mary jane
one more time to kill the pain
i feel summer creepin’ in and i’m
tired of this town again.
Last Dance with Mary Jane
Tom Petty
(to room cricket with a tennis racquet, to cycling to friends places because its raining (!!) and you've got to get out of the house..., to grey skies, to causing 2pacs fall from grace, to chai, to walking across roads with your eyes closed, to aiming for jordan, to letting it burn.)
Saturday, February 19, 2005
closing time, open all the doors and let you out into the world,
closing time, turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl,
closing time, one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer,
closing time, you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here.
closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from
closing time, this room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
so gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.
Closing Time
Semisonic
always found this song comfortable, something to slip into at the end of the day. it's funny how music will do that for you when you think you've just cut the last thread that was holding you up, you suddenly find you're being held up by...nothing at all.
*blinks twice, slowly*
i've been threatening to tell you all a story, someday. but that day isn't today.
closing time, turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl,
closing time, one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer,
closing time, you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here.
closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from
closing time, this room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
so gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
i hope you have found a friend.
closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.
Closing Time
Semisonic
always found this song comfortable, something to slip into at the end of the day. it's funny how music will do that for you when you think you've just cut the last thread that was holding you up, you suddenly find you're being held up by...nothing at all.
*blinks twice, slowly*
i've been threatening to tell you all a story, someday. but that day isn't today.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
you call me a dog,
well that’s fair enough.
’cause it ain’t no use to pretend,
you’re wrong.
when you call me out i can’t hide anymore,
i have no disguise you can’t see through.
well you say it’s bad luck,
to have fallen for me.
well what can i do to make it good for you?
you wore me out like an old winter coat
trying to be safe from the cold.
but when it’s my time,
to throw the next stone,
i’ll call you
beautiful,
you call me a dog, and
you tell me i’m low ’cause i’ve slept on the floor,
and out in the woods with the badgers & wolves,
you threw me out ’cause i went digging for gold,
i came home with a handful of coal.
but when it’s my time,
to throw the next stone,
i’ll call you
beautiful,
and when it’s my time,
to call your bluff.
i’ll call you beautiful,
or leave it alone.
you call me a dog,
well that’s fair enough.
it doesn’t bother me as long as you know,
bad luck will follow you,
if you keep me on a leash and
you drag me along.
Call me a Dog
Temple of the Dog
well that’s fair enough.
’cause it ain’t no use to pretend,
you’re wrong.
when you call me out i can’t hide anymore,
i have no disguise you can’t see through.
well you say it’s bad luck,
to have fallen for me.
well what can i do to make it good for you?
you wore me out like an old winter coat
trying to be safe from the cold.
but when it’s my time,
to throw the next stone,
i’ll call you
beautiful,
if I call at all.
you call me a dog, and
you tell me i’m low ’cause i’ve slept on the floor,
and out in the woods with the badgers & wolves,
you threw me out ’cause i went digging for gold,
i came home with a handful of coal.
but when it’s my time,
to throw the next stone,
i’ll call you
beautiful,
if i call at all.
and when it’s my time,
to call your bluff.
i’ll call you beautiful,
or leave it alone.
you call me a dog,
well that’s fair enough.
it doesn’t bother me as long as you know,
bad luck will follow you,
if you keep me on a leash and
you drag me along.
Call me a Dog
Temple of the Dog
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
and this world's a play of sinners & saints,
i chose my part long ago, never knowing it's the blood that taints..
idly staring out the window, decadence seeping from each pore, he sits and ponders his designs of flesh. children of a thousand vices us all, encompassed in the warm embrace of shed responsibility, another layer added to our cocoon with each new sin.
is this me, or am i dreaming?
crush me, hold me, love me - i can't go on my own...please..why won't you..i'm only human.
in a world where we limit the parts we play even before the curtains go up, caught in the harsh glare of the spotlight twisting lines to encompassing spirals, i dare you to be proud to be good.
i chose my part long ago, never knowing it's the blood that taints..
idly staring out the window, decadence seeping from each pore, he sits and ponders his designs of flesh. children of a thousand vices us all, encompassed in the warm embrace of shed responsibility, another layer added to our cocoon with each new sin.
is this me, or am i dreaming?
crush me, hold me, love me - i can't go on my own...please..why won't you..i'm only human.
in a world where we limit the parts we play even before the curtains go up, caught in the harsh glare of the spotlight twisting lines to encompassing spirals, i dare you to be proud to be good.
Monday, January 31, 2005
mother, do you think they’ll drop the bomb?
mother, do you think they’ll like this song?
mother, do you think they’ll try to break my balls?
ooooowaa mother, should i build a wall?
mother, should i run for president?
mother, should i trust the government?
mother, will they put me in the firing line?
ooooowaa is it just a waste of time?
hush, my baby. baby, don’t you cry.
momma’s gonna make all of your nightmares come true.
momma’s gonna put all of her fears into you.
momma’s gonna keep you right here under her wing.
she won’t let you fly, but she might let you sing.
momma’s gonna keep baby cozy and warm.
oooo babe.
oooo babe.
ooo babe, of course momma’s gonna help build a wall.
mother, do you think she’s good enough,
for me?
mother, do you think she’s dangerous,
to me?
mother will she tear your little boy apart?
ooooowaa mother, will she break my heart?
hush, my baby. baby, don’t you cry.
momma’s gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.
momma won’t let anyone dirty get through.
momma’s gonna wait up until you get in.
momma will always find out where you’ve been.
momma’s gonna keep baby healthy and clean.
oooo babe.
oooo babe.
ooo babe, you’ll always be baby to me.
Mother, did it need to be so high?
Mother
Pink Floyd
mother, do you think they’ll like this song?
mother, do you think they’ll try to break my balls?
ooooowaa mother, should i build a wall?
mother, should i run for president?
mother, should i trust the government?
mother, will they put me in the firing line?
ooooowaa is it just a waste of time?
hush, my baby. baby, don’t you cry.
momma’s gonna make all of your nightmares come true.
momma’s gonna put all of her fears into you.
momma’s gonna keep you right here under her wing.
she won’t let you fly, but she might let you sing.
momma’s gonna keep baby cozy and warm.
oooo babe.
oooo babe.
ooo babe, of course momma’s gonna help build a wall.
mother, do you think she’s good enough,
for me?
mother, do you think she’s dangerous,
to me?
mother will she tear your little boy apart?
ooooowaa mother, will she break my heart?
hush, my baby. baby, don’t you cry.
momma’s gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.
momma won’t let anyone dirty get through.
momma’s gonna wait up until you get in.
momma will always find out where you’ve been.
momma’s gonna keep baby healthy and clean.
oooo babe.
oooo babe.
ooo babe, you’ll always be baby to me.
Mother, did it need to be so high?
Mother
Pink Floyd
Friday, January 07, 2005
hey there little girl, whats that you've got in your pocket?
is it a shiny shooting star?
and will it show me where we are?
are you going to show me, honey,
or are you just giving it away for free..
hey there little girl, whyve you turned to the side?
are you pushing or pulling away?
when did we become the wall?
did we become the wall,
or am i just dreaming and drifting away..
hey there little girl, where'd that smile come from?
is it sunny where you are?
and will you share some of that sky with me?
will you share, honey,
or was it never yours to give away..
hey there little girl, what's that you've got in your pocket?
would you like to share that box?
and can you keep a secret?
i think i've got a secret you can keep,
or maybe it was never mine to tell.
is it a shiny shooting star?
and will it show me where we are?
are you going to show me, honey,
or are you just giving it away for free..
hey there little girl, whyve you turned to the side?
are you pushing or pulling away?
when did we become the wall?
did we become the wall,
or am i just dreaming and drifting away..
hey there little girl, where'd that smile come from?
is it sunny where you are?
and will you share some of that sky with me?
will you share, honey,
or was it never yours to give away..
hey there little girl, what's that you've got in your pocket?
would you like to share that box?
and can you keep a secret?
i think i've got a secret you can keep,
or maybe it was never mine to tell.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
we may never again be who we were, but even lost in that memory we'll never lose faith in who we may become..and there's a moment when who you are in the here & now becomes the same 'who' in whom you hold so much faith. so breathe, sometimes...because sometimes that's all you can do.
oh sinner man, where you going to run to?
oh sinner man, where you going to run to?
Saturday, December 25, 2004
here's something that's been doing the rounds...things in bold are one's you've done.
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sunrise
15. Seen the Northern Lights (its on the list of things to do..)
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars (not all night)
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier3
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath/shower
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced (or incredibly whiny)
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country (hehe)
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Bench-pressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to know about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken (so far, so good)
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Sword fought for the honor of a woman.
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married (i was 6 yrs old :P)
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Lied
97. (the real 97) Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch (from salman: cake.... well... we TRIED to :P)
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo (do bubblegum wrapper ones count?)
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason (yeah, i bought them for myself :P)
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas.
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Moulin Rouge
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congressperson
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge (does drive count?)
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion, or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived (does it have to be just an accident?)
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145.Broken someones heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle (not driven)
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster?
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced (does stapling your thumb twice count?)
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery.
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: take-off, landing, during
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours (jet lag zindabad)
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for his or her actions
175. Gone back to school (visiting, yeah)
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad (and the aenid....and metamorphases...and ovid...gotta do all that!)
181. Selected one "important" author whom you missed in school, and read him/ her (pah! i read everything in school!)
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them (why is this even a question?)
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch (of course, it didn't work too well)
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Lost your Best Friend for reasons of death
201: Fallen in love over the internet
202: Sung in a Barbers' Shop Quartet (how about an octuplet in the superstore?)
203: Eaten a live animal
204: Been able to communicate in a language you barely learnt barely three days earlier.
205: Gate-crashed a wedding and went up to get your pictures taken with the happy couple
these ones are mine!!! (i.e. mina's) :
205: Been so caught up in a book that you kept reading it, even in the shower
206: Run a lap-without stopping- inside the original Olympics stadium in Athens
207: Had recurring dreams
208: Fallen asleep underneath a tree
209: Eaten lollipops every day for weeks
210: Been inside a bombed-out building
211: Ridden a camel
212: Had a book you loved signed by the author
and these are mine:
213: been mugged
214: almost been mugged......if not for the fact that you ran as fast as you could.
215: been shot at.
216: seen a bomb explode.
217: been a plane when it lost cabin pressure.
218: been stranded at an airport with no idea how you were going to get home.
219: gone through an extended period where you didn't know where each evening's dinner was coming from.
220: pretended to be asleep to get out of something you really should have done.
221: spent hours in the shower because you didn't want to go outside.
222: smiled..not out of happiness, but at the sheer ridiculous-ness of something that's got fairly serious consequences.
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sunrise
15. Seen the Northern Lights (its on the list of things to do..)
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars (not all night)
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier3
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath/shower
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced (or incredibly whiny)
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country (hehe)
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Bench-pressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to know about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken (so far, so good)
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Sword fought for the honor of a woman.
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married (i was 6 yrs old :P)
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Lied
97. (the real 97) Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch (from salman: cake.... well... we TRIED to :P)
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo (do bubblegum wrapper ones count?)
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason (yeah, i bought them for myself :P)
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas.
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Moulin Rouge
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congressperson
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge (does drive count?)
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion, or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived (does it have to be just an accident?)
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145.Broken someones heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle (not driven)
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster?
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced (does stapling your thumb twice count?)
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery.
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: take-off, landing, during
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours (jet lag zindabad)
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for his or her actions
175. Gone back to school (visiting, yeah)
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad (and the aenid....and metamorphases...and ovid...gotta do all that!)
181. Selected one "important" author whom you missed in school, and read him/ her (pah! i read everything in school!)
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them (why is this even a question?)
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch (of course, it didn't work too well)
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Lost your Best Friend for reasons of death
201: Fallen in love over the internet
202: Sung in a Barbers' Shop Quartet (how about an octuplet in the superstore?)
203: Eaten a live animal
204: Been able to communicate in a language you barely learnt barely three days earlier.
205: Gate-crashed a wedding and went up to get your pictures taken with the happy couple
these ones are mine!!! (i.e. mina's) :
205: Been so caught up in a book that you kept reading it, even in the shower
206: Run a lap-without stopping- inside the original Olympics stadium in Athens
207: Had recurring dreams
208: Fallen asleep underneath a tree
209: Eaten lollipops every day for weeks
210: Been inside a bombed-out building
211: Ridden a camel
212: Had a book you loved signed by the author
and these are mine:
213: been mugged
214: almost been mugged......if not for the fact that you ran as fast as you could.
215: been shot at.
216: seen a bomb explode.
217: been a plane when it lost cabin pressure.
218: been stranded at an airport with no idea how you were going to get home.
219: gone through an extended period where you didn't know where each evening's dinner was coming from.
220: pretended to be asleep to get out of something you really should have done.
221: spent hours in the shower because you didn't want to go outside.
222: smiled..not out of happiness, but at the sheer ridiculous-ness of something that's got fairly serious consequences.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
have you ever lost your faith?
the first time he did, it was in a concrete maze high above the world, talking to the tops of palm trees, making friends with the wind. then it was anger, resentment at a world which refused to yield to what he felt was his insurmountable will. how dare it refuse to bend? if only a little..just an inch, to reassure him that it was there. it did, ofcourse, not.
one of the greatest tragedies you'll experience is seeing a child with empty eyes.
the second moment was more mundane, more run-of-the-mill, completely in tune with the way life had progressed from so long ago. in a shower, warm water massaging his scalp and forming a dozen little waterfalls on its way to the deep blue floor. he sat there for hours, so afraid to move, to shatter the world of hope,faith,expectations,love he'd so gently crafted all around himself in a web so tight there's only way to go when you are where you've been. in that moment between who you were and who you are, you make the choice to either face up to the consequences of what you've done, or to silently fade away.
it isn't easy. it never is.
the first time he did, it was in a concrete maze high above the world, talking to the tops of palm trees, making friends with the wind. then it was anger, resentment at a world which refused to yield to what he felt was his insurmountable will. how dare it refuse to bend? if only a little..just an inch, to reassure him that it was there. it did, ofcourse, not.
one of the greatest tragedies you'll experience is seeing a child with empty eyes.
the second moment was more mundane, more run-of-the-mill, completely in tune with the way life had progressed from so long ago. in a shower, warm water massaging his scalp and forming a dozen little waterfalls on its way to the deep blue floor. he sat there for hours, so afraid to move, to shatter the world of hope,faith,expectations,love he'd so gently crafted all around himself in a web so tight there's only way to go when you are where you've been. in that moment between who you were and who you are, you make the choice to either face up to the consequences of what you've done, or to silently fade away.
it isn't easy. it never is.
Monday, December 20, 2004
wrapped in these fingers, somewhere, is a story. and in that story is a place, a place where all of this comes together, for a moment, before shooting off in different directions again, and it's that place i'll always escape to when i close my eyes.
it's a great story. normally complementary themes, thrown into conflict. five, ten different paths converging and then diverging once more in the only true meaning of 'parallel' when it comes to telling a story. it's a love story, it'll bring a smile to your lips, it'll renew your faith.
maybe i'll tell you, someday.
it's a great story. normally complementary themes, thrown into conflict. five, ten different paths converging and then diverging once more in the only true meaning of 'parallel' when it comes to telling a story. it's a love story, it'll bring a smile to your lips, it'll renew your faith.
maybe i'll tell you, someday.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)