something is happening. and this is good, because for a long time nothing was happening. This, however, is different. i can feel something...growing...inside me. im changing, or ive changed and im coming to realize in what ways. whatever it is, it casts a new light on everything i see, hear, touch, feel.
its awareness...heightened awareness of everything around me. im not just seeing anymore, im seeing. Not breathing just to breathe...theres something more.
its growing.
and all of this sounds melodramatic as ever, ofcourse. which makes me question it....makes me think im raising everything past its significance....but i can't help but feel i'm not. judge me at your own peril.
everytime i go out there its new. i experiment, feel my way around. everythings new, and different. its like taking your first steps again...but this time you're aware of what you're doing. The baby isn't aware of the significance of his development, only we are.
again that word...awareness. it keeps popping up.

drifting, drifting....floating..flying....in a sea of new things, new ideas, new interpretations, new people. a new life. somethings going to happen soon.

soon....